What could have been...

Today is the first of what I'm assuming is going to be a handful or more of hard days in my near future. The stress and mourning of what could have been. The life that could have been, the children that could have been, the sweetness and memories that could have been. Where would I be RIGHT NOW if it had been? It's one thing to move on to a new life, figuring it out one step at a time and the renewal that comes with that but what about the loss of what was at one time within your reach (or never really). It makes me sad and I have to feel this weight I think just for a moment.

Kirby Costa Campos