The weather in NYC has been awesome so far this winter, not a drop of snow and only one bitter day so far. Personally, I would be happy if we see no snow in this city ever again. I hate it. It’s not the pretty country snow here, oh no, within hours what looks all pretty turns into a muddy slush that sneaks into even the best winter boots. And the side walks, oh so dangerous when that slush starts to freeze up. I’ll never forget being pregnant and having to deal with these conditions, a horrible horrible winter with my bones hurting SO much.
Today it was so mild again I was able to get outside with G to the park right outside our new loft, it was great to take a stroll, really taking in the new relaxed state our new place is creating for us. The last place had horrible neighbors that made our everyday life a living hell. While it’s taking a bit to shake the bad experience and 8 months of stress we had every single day, we are getting there.
Our quality of life is so different in this new place, I feel like I’ve been reborn a bit. I want to get dressed in the morning (even put on a little make-up!) where for a while there I practically lived in PJ’s since I work from home. Since G and I are starting to fall into a new routine for days she’s not in school I’m starting to have the brain power to make healthy meals for us all and figure out exactly what this picky toddler will and will not eat. Over my holiday break I tied up so many personal projects that have been hanging over my head and even got some reading time in there somewhere. Good start to a new year.
Again while our quality of life is greatly improving it takes a while for the mind and heart to except the changes. G’s been acting out a bit and Mark and I have both been finding new things to stress over. I guess once you get into a habit of a certain frame of mind it’s hard to shake it huh?
With the loft not being build out and G not having a room yet we’ve been struggling with nap/bedtimes/me having to work at night. We’re hoping to get this place all built out next month. Not to mention the loft is dangerous with it’s 10 foot drop and no railing at all.
One thing I’ve really learned about this all is something I will be doing for my daughter when she grows up. While some people look at saving for college a big goal for their children, for me it has turned to helping her out so she will never have to live in a slum like we did for so long. I makes you loose a bit of heart even holds you back. She can find means with our help to go to school, there’s grants student loans but a safe home there’s no loans for that especially in this expensive city. She will not have this struggle of survival. Not to say she won’t need to work for it but we will be there to make sure she is taking care of.
My beautiful daughter, you will never know that kind of struggle if there’s anything I can do about it, I promise.