your mama has been in a blogger rut as of lately. So much happening the routine of life has taken over. So much with you has been happening though and I hate that life can sometimes get in the way of letting you know about all of that. You’re learning so much these days! Clapping, dancing, saying “Shhhhhh”, getting onto and off of furniture yourself and a third tooth has popped through. You’ve been growing, growing, growing, and are really starting to look like the little girl you’re going to become.
Sometimes I wish I could quit my job, move to quaint little town somewhere warm and just spend my days focused 100% on you and nothing else. How lovely it would be to always be 100% present, to capture each and every moment through photos, memories, and smells. To not miss out on any moment of your childhood. Some days when I’m sitting here hours on end working and you give me those puppy dog eyes pulling on my pants for attention I feel so guilty. I know we have a better situation then most, I work from home, some parents have to put there kids in daycare for hours with strangers, we get to have our moments every single day even when I’m working which is great.
I know working hard and continuing to build my company is the right thing to do. Fact is I want to leave you with something one day. I want to have something I have put my heart, tears, and blood into to provide for you and your future. I want you to have an identity and a good start to your adult life. Through this company, the capitol it will someday produce I’m giving that to you, a solid start to a great life. I don’t know if one day I’ll sell this energy zapping beast off for a large chunk of money or hand it down to you to run how you see fit but, I need to keep reminding myself on these tough moments when I feel pulled in a million and one directions, when my to do list just never seems to end, I’m doing this for us, for our family. When you get older dear you’ll be proud of your mama, you’ll have a good life, I promise.