I'm healing and am so excited.

Okay before I put out there all the things I am doing to heal, I have to tell you guys some great news, I’m healing. And not like the flashes of good feelings, I know it will someday get better healing but full-fledged results, in two months. I know there’s still a lot of healing to be done but guys, it’s working! 

When I first arrived in NY I was a bit of an emotional mess. I cried on my uncle's shoulder one evening scared out of my mind I had made the wrong choices coming back to the states but mostly scared I would never heal, and I was just wasting my time. I was in a copper dump. I’ve come to realize through my research and finally tuning into my body copper dumps can be triggered by stress, emotional stress just as much through detox. On one side this is great, the more dumping the quicker it’s out of my body. On the other side, for stability’s sake, this is why I had such a tough month that led to me making the decision to come to the US. My emotional state around my relationship and the new supplement program had me dumping copper like crazy - nonstop which I didn’t realize (couldn’t realize!) at the time. I have to say those four weeks were some of the worst weeks of my entire life. Mentally I went to some of the darkest places I’ve ever been, physically I was convinced at some points I may die, if I could have made the choice to shrivel up and die I would have. This is copper - this is what it can and will do to people - this is why more people need to learn about this illness and how absolutely debilitating not only it but the healing process can actually be. 

Flash forward three short weeks from that dark time, yes, only three weeks! And I am in a completely different place, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. That difficult month led to its reward, lower overall copper levels. I dumped so much, so quick the physical effects on my body have been amazing. 

My adrenals are officially down, and my thyroid/blood sugar is balanced. Now when I first learned about copper toxicity I thought it was the copper creating all my symptoms, in some ways, it was because it was the free-floating nasty stuff the damages organs and nerves all over your body. But the actual symptoms I struggled with like inflammation, IBS, mood swings, fatigue, rashes around my eyes, hives when I ran, PMS, anxiety/stress and overall mood of “asshole” were caused by my overactive adrenals and thyroid in response to the metal not the metal itself if that makes sense?

With these two parts of my body now balanced all of these symptoms are GONE! My skin is beautiful, not a single reaction around my eyes anymore and no hives even when I run a distance. No more stomach pain EVER! I can’t remember the last time I had a tummy ache actually haha when I use to wake every single morning in pain, No more inflammation or swelling in my hands and body, and my mood while it’s still affected when I dump copper overall because my blood sugar is balanced is just “chill”, I use to be so irritable and I find myself in situations now when I normally would snap or be grumpy (particularly with my daughter and family members) and I’m just - not - bothered anymore. The more calm intake of information from around me has made it possible for me to express my needs or concerns over particular situations, be heard and respected and not damage the relationships in the process. Without knee-jerk panic people actually like me haha. I’ve been spending time with family I haven’t seen for 15 years who are very different to me so there have been many opportunities for my old reactions to come into play but it’s like I’m a different person. That anxiety just isn’t there to the point I’m pretty slow now dealing with some interactions because it’s all so new to me not automatically feeling like I have a response to everything and actually having to take moments to think. My mind has slowed down that’s for sure and it feels so different. 

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I’ve always been on edge, loud things and sudden movements always startled me. I would scream and jump at a moment’s notice because I had so must stress hormone in my body. A few days ago someone dropped something really loudly behind the couch I was sitting on when I was deeply into a book and I had absolutely NO response. I surprised myself by not being surprised and yelping haha. I’m no longer in fight or flight every single moment and it’s a whole new world because of that. 

My eyes are brighter and they are going more blue (less copper/yellow/green) as my levels come down. I have energy like I haven’t had in years! This isn’t consistent yet, there’s good days and bad days where my liver is still in overdrive and my body needs rest but some days I am able to tap into a vitality and life force like I haven’t had for years - I feel like I could hike the worlds highest mountain! 

The most exciting thing and the clearest sign of the physical changes though happened last night, I’m so excited about this haha. I have for years had debilitating motion sickness to the point I couldn’t even look at my phone for more than a min in a car or bus without getting sick. It was awful when I worked in the music industry touring because I could not answer emails or anything on long drives. Now there’s a lot of theories out there about motion/sea sickness and when we hired the skipper to bring our boat down after we bought it he mentioned the cause of most motion sickness is too much adrenaline in the system. This made so much sense to me when I found out about my overactive adrenals. Well, last night on a particularly long drive the most amazing thing happened to me. I was able to read in the car for the first time and not get sick. I am happy to report I read small text on my phones kindle app for over an hour drive and it had no effect on me physically. Not only that I’ve also just realized writing this my daughter since starting her detox meds too has not complained of getting car sick once since getting to the US, and we are in the car every single day. This is life changing stuff guys all within three months. 

I know I keep saying this over and over but the more I heal the more I realise how sick I actually was and access forgiveness for myself and my life unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. I can’t imagine 6 months or a year from now how it will feel when all my deficiencies are corrected. I feel like I’m growing into a completely new person, but at the same time reconnecting with someone within myself I didn’t know was there. 

If you’re struggling with a copper imbalance or other mineral rebalancing issues please know there’s hope - three weeks ago I was sobbing because I didn’t know if it was possible but that was all part of the process, it gets worse before it gets better, I’m proof of that and will continue to be proof of that through future copper dumps but keep your eye on the prise and soon enough you’ll start to see symptoms just falling away like that are for me. Keep hope - there’s hope.